i have nothing to blame my retarded, awkward behavior on. i regret most of what I don't do. and most of what i don't.

i'm way too used to fucking shit up.

"We all become important when we realize our goal
Should be to figure out our role within the context of the whole
And yeah, rock and roll is fun, but if you ever hear someone
Say you are huge, look at the moon, look at the stars, look at the sun
Look at the ocean and the desert and the mountains and the sky
Say I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye"

this will resolve itself into being # seven.
eventually, all will be understood.
if i can even get there.